The closer it gets......

It is 8 days from your 4 year Angelversary and it is never easy no matter how many years pass since I lost you. I dread everyday cuz it is one day closer to remembering the worst day of my life. When we heard "I'm sorry I'm not seeing a heart beat" those words will forever be burnt into my brain and then having to put on a fake smile to cover my pain.

I want you to know ur lil brother has been such a blessing and has helped me so much. He truly has been my rainbow after the storm. I also want you to know no matter how much I am so grateful and love ur lil brother you will always be my baby and I love you so much and miss you everyday of my life. There is not a day that goes by I don't think of you and wish you were here with your brothers.

I love you my Sweet Pea and hold you in my heart everyday. As long as I live you will live. <3 xoxoxo love, mommy